Fear refusing to slide...

How do I tell you, what I feel?
Fear eating my insides, refusing to leave...
Heart refusing to shut the fear up,
Waiting! for it to slowly ebb...

How do I tell you, what I hear?
The whispers of unfounded fear...
Behind the shut eyes, scenes play,
Alert! I am wide awake...

How do I tell you, what I dreamt?
A shingle, clanging at a glass vent...
Closing my ears, I refused to hear,
The scream of a voice so dear...

How do I explain, the fear clutching at my brain?
Had to bang and deafen with silent cry...
Holding my knees, I bent my head,
Let out the tears, slowly to rest...