Solitude

Tried running away but caught midway
thrown aside, my pride pried away
swooped to take a flight, foot poised upright
thoughts ran riot but failed to connect.

Weird thoughts washed away the blocks
The brain stem cleared but still raw
felt the nerves starting to gnaw
a hunger tried to hacksaw.

Leave! don't meddle anymore
memories of you, I abhor.
Want to slip away to a world with you
where killing is not considered askew.

Come come I'm waiting for you,
with a gun, bullets loaded new.
If you like a dagger better than a bullet
let me know, I might consider.

Solitude is what I asked you to give
You agreed but started being restive
Let go! I will try not to dissect
though thoughts run riot.